it’s hard explaining to people that my life is a constant state of actually wanting to be dead, it doesn’t have anything to do with my relationship to you it’s all me, i want to die. Telling me that people love me or that life is worth living or any of those things as nice as a statement as they are, end up meaning jack shit to me because i’ve heard it all before. It’s especially irritating because it’s not something that I ever feel /seriously/ comfortable talking about so when I finally feel comfortable enough to talk to someone about my issues and they spew out self righteous bullshit like “Killing yourself is so selfish so many people love you.” yeah I get it that’s cool. I don’t care. and you’ve successfully reinforced why I don’t ever feel comfortable talking about it. thanks for that. but glad u feel better and glad u feel like u saved a life today. Good job bucko.